Well… I wanted to update weekly. A few things have happened:
- Working on my room: the house has a spare room, which is now my office/where all my stuff goes. I’ve spent a lot of time unpacking/rearranging the room. I’ve bought containers and racks, and each time I do, I rearrange the room. I’ve done that about 4 or 5 times now. It’s a constant evolution. So I keep tampering with the room
- The biggest distraction from writing is Tammy’s nephews. We do board games or something every night, and some days I’ve had to do their summer lessons with them while Tammy was sick or taking the dogs to the vet. It’s fun and rewarding at times, but I also feel like I’m putting my life on hold for them, and that’s very frustrating. It also tells me that I won’t be having kids anytime soon. I have too much to do to dedicate my life to raising a child at this exact moment.
Then again, I JUST moved, I’m trying to settle into a new life, so it’s not a fair indication of what my life will be. Either way, I want to stabilize, and also do some sort of writing, before I settle down and have a family. I’d like to have some sort of writing career to help take care of my family. I feel like the older I get, the more it’s a pipe dream, and I feel like I’ve wasted my 20’s, but every writer has self-doubt. I’m plagued by it, but it’s not going to stop me.
Speaking of writing, I’ve been working mostly on The Last Bastion. I had been writing like any amateur would: just putting the words to paper. A few weeks ago, I actually set about plotting the entire first volume, therefore giving me a road map, and not falling victim to my fickle whims.
It’s about doing the work every day, and throughout my life, I’ve found excuses not to: I’m tired from work, I just moved, the boys are distracting me… even now this post was about the excuses as to why I haven’t posted here. It shows a lack of discipline on my end. And of course my first reaction is to promise to turn all of this around, to write every day, and to post every week, and to do all of this stuff.
But let’s be realistic, I’d fall off the wagon pretty quickly.
So for now, I’m going to try and post on my site weekly, I’m going to try to do a podcast this week. I’m going to work on The Last Bastion chapter 3, hopefully finish it in the next few weeks.
One step at a time. Then we walk, we jog, we run, we fly, we transcend.